I always fancied being a writer...maybe it stems from my wild imagination. I have attempted writing but I am also a procrastinator...I shall attempt it now...Now. Now because I have lived the last eight months of my life with enuff drama to actually fill a book, now because I am going crazy with all these thoughts that I cannot share with anyone, Now because I am hoping that this can be the escape that I actually do need.
Where to start...the begining I suppose....that would be about me I guess, this would normally be my favourite topic..I do have an ego you will soon learn. BUT...I am stuck...who is ME. I thought I knew but so much has happened, so much that has changed me...but then again you will never really know who you are as only certain events...heartbreak, happiness...that can bring out that person in you....It could be there somewhere deep within but it can only come out once it is triggered. So I guess we all will never know who we truly are....and my wish is that you never find out as some things are just better off not ventured.
The facts that are as black is black...I am South African, I am 32 years old. I am married. I do have two beautiful sons. I have an older sister and a younger brother, a middle child...much of which has contributed to who I am...stuck in the middle. I cannot say that I am employed as that could chance, I cannot say that I am healthy cos that too can change...so?, is that all that is factual about me....all but one more....one that will never change....I am a child of the King of Kings, and I love Him with all my heart, He is my everything. I am talking about my Lord Jesus Christ.
On the side that is much to be debated but in my opinion, I am funny, I love to party. I am attractive, I have a wild imagination, I love to be the centre of it all, I am a snob, I am conceited at times, I can be selfish, I dont like to share things that are close to my heart, I am jealous, I dont pretend if I dont like you, I am a fashionista, bold, caring, highly passionate, loving, love to look my best, always wanting to be a better person. I fail, I succeed. I dont cry easily, I laugh wholeheartedly. I have a huge conscience thats tangible at times. I am also quite and shy, excited about the future come what may, optimisstic. Sometimes quick to react.....these things are just stuff off my head....do you beg to differ....well nothings as it seems. I am complex, just like the rest of you....no one can be truly defined. Thats what I just learned, just now I learned this...see this writing is an escape.
But I have to go now, have to fetch my son....and for that there is no compromise.
Lets see what we learn tomorrow.
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