Today I awoke feeling good. Why??, I think that I really felt a bit of release from writing yesterday. In fact I couldn’t wait to do it again..so here goes.
Life has no guarantees…well thank God for that..I mean imagine taking your life back for a refund each time it didn’t work out the way it was guaranteed to…then what would you do with all the experiences both good and bad. Imagine having to start over each time something happened that you didn’t plan or messed up your plans. No thank you – how predictable, how boring….and how sad not to have opportunities whereby you can call upon God.
Often I think, ‘Oh Lord why me’…..but for the number of times I say that I have twice the number of testimonies for all the times that God saw me through a bad time. In fact I am a walking book of testimonies…the fact that I awoke this morning all safe and sound is a testimony.
When bad things happen see it as an opportunity to rise up and be victorious. Victory is a choice. And you will never know your own strength unless you but it through the challenge. Today I feel like I am the world’s strongest woman, for I have survived. I am victorious. More trials will come but I take comfort knowing that God will give me the victory and that what I lose in that experience I make space for an even better blessing from Him.
And thats the guarantee of life...that you will have trials, failure, success, but its all part of making you You. To pushing yourself to the limits where you really get to know your capabilities. To getting to know the Father deeper...I am getting there, slowly but surely. So come on, take your best shot at me...give me an opportunity to yet another victory through my Father.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
August 4th, 2010 - My Introduction
I always fancied being a writer...maybe it stems from my wild imagination. I have attempted writing but I am also a procrastinator...I shall attempt it now...Now. Now because I have lived the last eight months of my life with enuff drama to actually fill a book, now because I am going crazy with all these thoughts that I cannot share with anyone, Now because I am hoping that this can be the escape that I actually do need.
Where to start...the begining I suppose....that would be about me I guess, this would normally be my favourite topic..I do have an ego you will soon learn. BUT...I am stuck...who is ME. I thought I knew but so much has happened, so much that has changed me...but then again you will never really know who you are as only certain events...heartbreak, happiness...that can bring out that person in you....It could be there somewhere deep within but it can only come out once it is triggered. So I guess we all will never know who we truly are....and my wish is that you never find out as some things are just better off not ventured.
The facts that are as black is black...I am South African, I am 32 years old. I am married. I do have two beautiful sons. I have an older sister and a younger brother, a middle child...much of which has contributed to who I am...stuck in the middle. I cannot say that I am employed as that could chance, I cannot say that I am healthy cos that too can change...so?, is that all that is factual about me....all but one more....one that will never change....I am a child of the King of Kings, and I love Him with all my heart, He is my everything. I am talking about my Lord Jesus Christ.
On the side that is much to be debated but in my opinion, I am funny, I love to party. I am attractive, I have a wild imagination, I love to be the centre of it all, I am a snob, I am conceited at times, I can be selfish, I dont like to share things that are close to my heart, I am jealous, I dont pretend if I dont like you, I am a fashionista, bold, caring, highly passionate, loving, love to look my best, always wanting to be a better person. I fail, I succeed. I dont cry easily, I laugh wholeheartedly. I have a huge conscience thats tangible at times. I am also quite and shy, excited about the future come what may, optimisstic. Sometimes quick to react.....these things are just stuff off my head....do you beg to differ....well nothings as it seems. I am complex, just like the rest of you....no one can be truly defined. Thats what I just learned, just now I learned this...see this writing is an escape.
But I have to go now, have to fetch my son....and for that there is no compromise.
Lets see what we learn tomorrow.
Where to start...the begining I suppose....that would be about me I guess, this would normally be my favourite topic..I do have an ego you will soon learn. BUT...I am stuck...who is ME. I thought I knew but so much has happened, so much that has changed me...but then again you will never really know who you are as only certain events...heartbreak, happiness...that can bring out that person in you....It could be there somewhere deep within but it can only come out once it is triggered. So I guess we all will never know who we truly are....and my wish is that you never find out as some things are just better off not ventured.
The facts that are as black is black...I am South African, I am 32 years old. I am married. I do have two beautiful sons. I have an older sister and a younger brother, a middle child...much of which has contributed to who I am...stuck in the middle. I cannot say that I am employed as that could chance, I cannot say that I am healthy cos that too can change...so?, is that all that is factual about me....all but one more....one that will never change....I am a child of the King of Kings, and I love Him with all my heart, He is my everything. I am talking about my Lord Jesus Christ.
On the side that is much to be debated but in my opinion, I am funny, I love to party. I am attractive, I have a wild imagination, I love to be the centre of it all, I am a snob, I am conceited at times, I can be selfish, I dont like to share things that are close to my heart, I am jealous, I dont pretend if I dont like you, I am a fashionista, bold, caring, highly passionate, loving, love to look my best, always wanting to be a better person. I fail, I succeed. I dont cry easily, I laugh wholeheartedly. I have a huge conscience thats tangible at times. I am also quite and shy, excited about the future come what may, optimisstic. Sometimes quick to react.....these things are just stuff off my head....do you beg to differ....well nothings as it seems. I am complex, just like the rest of you....no one can be truly defined. Thats what I just learned, just now I learned this...see this writing is an escape.
But I have to go now, have to fetch my son....and for that there is no compromise.
Lets see what we learn tomorrow.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)